We are amused

[avi]

I took some time to read through all my old lj entries.

I have come to a simple conclusion: I was damn whiny as a 15 year old. I was also far less self-confident than I am now, but I knew that. My, how times and travel change a person ^_^ Well, not so much self-confidence... I never had an issue with that. It was more that I was certain there was nobody out there who actually liked me as a person, rather than just tolerating me.

I've gotten over that, and typically, I was quite incorrect at the time as well. I hope and pray I'm a more pleasant person to be around than I was at 15 :)

Comments

[shorelle.livejournal.com]

Haha, rest assured your posts as a 15-year-old are nowhere near as whiny and emo as mine :P And you have nothing to worry about re: the last paragraph, you're one of the most pleasant people I know :D

Also, Do As Infinity <3

[godzemo.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks.

...now you've made me curious to go look for your 15-year-old whiny emo posts, so I can compare =P

[godzemo.livejournal.com]

Wow. Okay, I found the angst. I kinda feel like I just looked in somewhere private that I shouldn't have >_>

All of a sudden I want to talk to a 15 year old girl and tell her that her life is not, in fact, worthless; except now she's a bit older than that and I believe has improved her self-confidence somewhat :p

[shorelle.livejournal.com]

Oh dear lord, some things are better left killed with a stick >__<" What did you end up reading? IIRC it gets concentratedly worse leading up to the HSC and stresssss. But it wouldn't be too private, since I posted it up on the internet instead of making it a private entry :P

... yeah, my self-esteem was embarassingly terrible, not that it's much better today, but I've learned to deal with it apart from the occasional spasm when surrounded by people :P

[godzemo.livejournal.com]

http://shorelle.livejournal.com/2003/04/01/
And you were listening to Linkin Park, too :p

I stopped after that, due to aforementioned feeling of being a bit invasive. I think had I known you at that point, I would have beat you over the head with a big stick labeled YOU ARE NOT ALONE for a while. My own self-esteem was shocking, for a lot of the same reasons- feeling very different to those around me.

I got very lucky at one point when I got invited to a smallish birthday party with a group of people who are still my friends. God only knows how they tolerated me at the time xD (one of those people was Maggie, who you've met)